Thursday, 5 July 2007

Post ocd-day recovery

Hi
Feeling better today. Although I finished the ritual last night - and technically gave in - I'm back to trying to manage it today. Have successfully resisted urges to keep washing, by reminding myself how horrible yesterday was.

I usually feel a bit numbed after a long session like yesterday - as if shocked by what my mind can make me do. I'm trying to disrupt any symmetry compulsions by deliberately disobeying what the ocd wants me to do - eg if move hair to one side of my face, instead of doing the other side in the same way, I did the same side twice (and continued).

Handwashing reduced after coming in from outside. Here's to a good night.

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